Tuesday, May 16, 2006


I'm up to page 65 in my screenplay. I can really see the end in sight, people! This is exciting, but I'm starting to think I should be actively fleshing out other ideas so I can be ready to work on my next project. As much as I dislike my 9 to 5, it really kicks ass to be able to work on my script during the day. Not that they know this. They see typing and intense screen stares, and assume I'm doing their bidding. Mwaaaahhhhahahahahahaha!

I haven't written for a week now. I felt I deserved a break, which is just ridiculous. Now I can't think of what to do next, and I'm in the middle of a scene! Why didn't I type some quick notes before stopping suddenly? What the Hell is wrong with me? You know that maddening feeling when something is on the tip of your tongue? That's what the rest of this scene is doing to me. I stare at the last line...Can't remember. I reread the scene...Can't remember. Damn! How long am I going to have to stare at this?

Another problem arose the last time I actively worked on my screenplay. The writing was flowing well, and the ideas felt good, but I remember feeling vaguely...bored. With the whole process. How bad is this news? Does it mean that the stuff I think is so clever is actually drool/snore inducing? I'm considering having some old instructors look at it to see what they think, since I'm half-way through it. Even though the end is staring me in the face, I still kinda feel like it will never really be DONE done. Do you know what I mean? So complete that, at the very least, myself and those I trust will consider it a finished/polished work.

I've got a lot of loose ends to tie up. Update the resume, put together clips of my script reviews from past classes, post books to this site for sell, figure out my script service business, buy a ticket to Las Vegas for next month, scan polaroids and old photos and post to my photo site, figure out my shop thing (finally), look for more interesting work...The list just never ends.

Speaking of never ending, I ate lunch an hour early today and now the afternoon is DRAGGING FUCKING ON AND ON. Shit.


miss tracey nolan said...

I always remember what Woody Allen said about how the movie that ends up on screen NEVER matches the vision of what he had in his head when he sat down to start writing the script. Daunting, no? Makes me think that no project is ever finished, really.

Say, citygirl, where's your photo site? Is it public? I'd like to see your photography work...

Cheetarah1980 said...

don't do what I did, don't stop. keep going. once you stop, it's so hard to get started again. keep writing. you can do this.

citygirl said...

Tracey: I hear you. I've taken enough film classes to know that a script can change even on the day that scene is shot. That's one of the reason I want to produce my own films, at least I can be in on that process as well.

Cheetarah: Too late! I keep haveing to rev up again. Why is it so damn difficult!


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