I love fall. I mean, love fall and its weather with a passion. I got the chance to drive around on Sunday and relax in the presence of pretty, pretty leaves. It was nice, and I hope you are all enjoying the cooler, more colorful days we're having.
HUBS is still in pain. He has now had two cortisone shots in his back and is taking some kind of muscle or nerve relaxant along with his pain meds. It's not helping. Plus, he had to go back to work as of today, where he had to stand in pain most of the day since sitting feels even worse.
I don't know what to do for him anymore and it hurts and makes me angry and sad and frustrated. As you can likely guess, it's doing wonders for my depression!
I mentioned before that I've been seeing a therapist again. On Saturday she suggested I talk to my doctor and go back on mood meds. Which made me cry. I'm not ashamed of taking drugs to feel more like a normal person, I just hoped I was done with that when I stopped taking Wellbutrin four years ago. But, considering the state of my unhappiness right now, and the fact that my therapist doesn't feel the tips in The Depression Cure alone can lift me to a normal level, I might as well.
Another thing screwing with my emotions? My stupid hair! To put it mildly, it's a 20 mule team cluster fuck up there. Oh, well. I'm going to keep trying new techniques to see if I can come out of this transition without going bald.
Enough of the pity party! Music!
6 comments:
I can understand the feeling of helplessness when your loved one is in pain. But, you are doing as much as you can.Hope, he will feel better soon..
Sorry you are having a hard time. I really can relate. As for the music. The first video has awesome special effects. And the third. I loved it. I am getting that song.
Bindu: Thanks, Bindu! Things are marvelously better now :)
Patrick: Glad you liked the music. You should check out Kimbra's other videos, all the ones from her new CD are great.
I'm glad things are looking up again. On the other hand, I've often wondered exactly what goes into determining what a normal mood level is, but then again, I'm somewhat of a cynic since psychiatrists kept my bipolar mother incapacitated with medication.
"A 20 mule team cluster fuck" is a fantastic line. It is probably some of the best imagery I have read in weeks.
Jeri: I know what you mean. But, I think "normal" mood is basically when irritating stuff can happen and it doesn't completely derail you. You get mad for a bit and then you start to move on.
Sorry to hear about your mom; It seems like they are more capable of helping people with serious mental health conditions without keeping them so doped up that they can't function, nowadays.
Jon: Glad you liked that line. I'm quite proud of it!
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